Fetsum: Shilalogy is a disease beyond your imagination
Folks, I went for Electrical Engineering in college and specialized in Solid State Engineering or Semiconductor Devices Fabrication Methods in graduate school to earn MSEE in 1989 from the State University of NY at Binghamton.
Folks, I went for Electrical Engineering in college and specialized in Solid State Engineering or Semiconductor Devices Fabrication Methods in graduate school to earn MSEE in 1989 from the State University of NY at Binghamton. I then earned MS in Information Systems from George Washington University in 1997 at the expense of the US Patent Office where I used to work at the time as a Patent Examiner in multi-dimensional engineering fields for about 14 years. I am an Electrician and also taught Application Software and Mathematics in different schools on and off until this stage of my life where I am contemplating early retirement to complete my new book probably after crystallizing my understanding of Buddhism from within few Far Eastern societies that practice the spirituality.
The fact remains that Psychology strongly impresses me to never hesitate majoring it had I had another chance to do. I am too old for school now but the human mind and behavior fascinate me to the limit and Psychology would have done justice to my deep interest on. Yet, with my little exposure to the field, I don’t think any mind can keep on generating ideas without other inputs that somehow trigger it to explore its unique creativity through knowledge acquired from our daily encounters. Nor do I think a pretentious life can easily get away from row commonsense because God gave us intelligence to assist, and we are blessed to have Assenna for this purpose.
As you know, I respectfully asked Amanuel Eyasu to keep the extremely filthy individuals in the forum for our psychological education and he did. Thank you my brother! Although you could have had a problem catching up with their frequency of appearance that dominated the last forum as you have noticed we learned good lessons from the opportunity as predicted. There is no doubt that there is too much hatred in our Nazist Agazian community and we are aware that they have full right to hate as long as they contain it within. They can peacefully organize themselves in terms of neighborhood, district, religion or ethnicity for their rights as long as they don’t cross our society’s wellbeing. We are not here to be liberated or united with another divided country by dreaming individuals incapable of liberating themselves from their own darkness for the question is nothing more than democracy at this point in the Eritrean experience. The deal is simple and straight forward; genuine communication without hang-up and camofludge, and taking the response without personification. In so doing, the Assenna family has no grudge to store, no image to entertain and no hatred to radiate. It only has compassion to give with absolute freedom of speech. We, therefore, love Shilan et al. as long as we arrest their tenacity to destroy our society. We love them for sacrificing their dignity by being a case study of the hallucinating mind and exposing us to Shilalogy, a psychological branch on unusual human behavior made at Assenna from the collective input of its participants.
Now, what is hatred? “Hatred or hate is a deep and extreme emotional dislike. It can be directed against individuals, groups, entities, objects, behaviors, or ideas. Hatred is often associated with feelings of anger, disgust and a disposition towards hostility. Pathological hatred happens regularly, and is strong, unreasonable, and impossible to control.” The nature of hatred does not stop at one shot level of radiation because once you hate something chances are you will hate something else making the self inflicted damage exponential to say the least. A hater eventually loses control and indiscriminately launches the emotion against the universe including animals, plants, mothers, fathers, women, men, materials, religions, ethnic groups and nature at large unconsciously ending up applying the emotion to himself as well.
What does hate do to Shilan? “Hating someone feels like a strong thing to do. It is a strong sentiment, but it leaves you weak. Not only physically but also emotionally and mentally. Your options are limited; your health is compromised your connection is lost.” But what else contributes to his unprecedented level of hate energy besides fear? Hate blossoms at home, in its most fertile ground. It germinates from a dysfunctional upbringing because “a childhood with physical and emotional abuse makes one fearful of being with other people, filled with self-hatred and inability to trust others.” And once you hate yourself, you have no problem hating anything in the cosmos because “Self-hatred (also called self loathing) refers to an extreme dislike or hatred of oneself, or being angry at or even prejudiced against oneself. The term is also used to designate a dislike or hatred of a group, family, social class, or stereotype to which one belongs and/or has.” Psychology, therefore, concludes that brother Shilan started his life as mentally and physically abused child to the point he cannot help being himself in public.
What else did we learn from the last few forum experiences? We learned that self hatred induces extreme pressure on the hater to avoid the self. When life suffocates a liar or a hater with too many challenges one tends to commit suicide. In the absence of the courage doing it, a person tries to walk away from the compounded self-inflicted problems by re-inventing the self in search of different existence. One has at this point approached the highest psychological state of fear, becoming pseudocidic. Pseudocide is a person’s highest form of escape from the self through extreme form of deception; by faking one’s death to start a new life. Is Shilan pseudocidic? Let’s us check that head out for food for thought!!
As you know, forensic science spots criminals through rigorous examination related to finger prints, patterns and DNA, etc. In this situation, the most dependable Assenians such as K.twolde, Ahmed Saleh, Meretse, Danilo and G.Simon squeezed the best out of his strange psychic condition in public: They have been toying him like what Pavlov did to salivate his dog by exposing him to a piece of meat, brilliantly conditioning him to bubble in the mouth and kill himself in favor of fake identities “Asmerom, Sami, etc.” based on the forensic files that testify to this conclusion beyond the benefit of the doubt. The question is how?
All forms of Shilan, at minimum used the following terms in their communication: aregit, old, fraudster, comedian, criminal, crook, crock and handouts and I don’t think this happened by accident. It was a pattern that Shilan tried to avoid but reality refused to comply. He knew he was a loner and tried to nullifying himself out of the show impersonating others in the horrifying experience. But his sloppy consciousness could not fake the truth that left something behind for forensic examination to spot the futile effort. Shilan is, therefore, a forensically proven pseudocidic for duplicating his mind behind other names.
Pattern oriented Forensic examination says this is not the first time Shilan committed psuedocide; he used to appear as Asmara2 and Asmara3 back in the days.
I know he used to hangout in the same local DC bars I used to visit based on his relatively rational description of my personality of the time (in my forums) when he was Asmara 2 and 3. Although I imagined him to have been a short, fat and mustached creature who cannot leave his place without a tie, three-piece suit and well shined shoes,
I did not identify him then and never will. Apparently, the toxic mind has remained constant few years into the compulsion that evolved itself to other names in this situation. What we discovered is, therefore, something called Shilalogy that has a universal academic place in human Psychology.
Shilalogy is not an idea, a marriage material, philosophy or outlook of society. Nor is it based on objective reality or historical substance fit for any style of communication but something a diagnosed person manifests to vent out internal problems with extreme vulgarity. It is Assenna’s psychology affiliated intellectual property characterized by child-abuse generated radicalized fear and self hatred that tries to liberate the self from the self by disintegrating it through pseudocidal approach. The syndrome demonizes the victim into revenge oriented self distraction as the main purpose of existence.
We cannot stop him because he has no life outside the forum but we can take him for nothing more than a piece of object like a cartoon art on a paper! Any person that takes this poor man seriously needs immediate psychiatric attention in my opinion. Does he have any value to society? I don’t think so because he has well served his experimental role for important psychological study called Shilalogy. What then would you do with this man? To be honest, I love him. Few of my most joyous moments in Assena took place because of him. You cannot believe how intensely I laugh in my pleasant solitude rereading his mind with uncontrollable tears in the eyes. I, therefore, would buy him for few dollars as a pet to entertain me in the house fully cooperating with my dog Keila that must be trained to switch him on and off through woofing. I thank Assenna for bringing him to my life!
Chapter 2: Until this point, I was treating Shilan’s issue as entertainment instead of a challenge because of wrong cultural orientation dealing with our traumatized people by any form of trauma including the effects of war, the struggle and betrayal, displacement, broken promises, wealth and family disintegration, etc. We have so many untreated psychologically wounded individuals beyond the understanding capacity of our people. They may look normal but their traumatic experience goes differ than their superficial image. It was at this point in the article that I really came to be enlightened by a decent Psychiatrist that specializes on child abuse in a bar, where we accidentally met and started discussing different things here and there. At one point, we were talking about his profession and what I learned was something I never seriously thought on in the past. I then went on trying to learn more about the situation and the research asserts what he briefly taught me in that accidental meeting. I am now seriously concerned about my brother Shilan as I went deeper into his life in relation to the cumulative damage done upon our people in general.
I started from Shilan’s most frequent terminologies: “whore mouth, Wedi Amate Komarit, Wedi Hirkam, deki Komerti, TEGOMBAHI, diKhala, savage, vicious, big and small, deQalu babies. As you were too inadequate (in size and in action/penetration), Islam shit. Eritreans were being raped, evil MONSTER PEADOPHILLE fucking ROT. You could also check your goats and camels teeth by opening their mouths so that you don’t make love to under age lavitatat. Use double condoms when you are making love to your “lavitatat” goats, camels and Italiano gigos!!! PIMP, Khaliffa whore mouth, Saho whore snake, fesewe, stinky, dog father, your Komarit mother Hirkams savage wishimatat, condoms, toilet roll kind long, fagnatura ass/backside. kelbi, holes, SOB”.
As a preliminary matter a PEADOPHILLE is a person who rapes an UNDERAGE child and EVIL MONSTER/action penertation an expression of a victim’s experience based on the brutality of the unfortunate event. While KELBI and TEGOMBAHI may imply the physical position of the humiliating happenstance and the CONDOM could be the tool used in the practice. I leave the WHORE, MOUTH, DOG FATHER, RAPED, big and small, inadequate (in size and in action/penetration), fucking for you to figure out in connection to the subject matter, but I have exceptional problem with “making love to your “lavitatat” goats, camels and Italiano gigos” for whatever my mind thinks about, still from the situation on the table. What I learned in this experience, thanks to the Psychiatrist was that “Zoophilia is a persistent sexual interest in animals). People of Zoophlia are known as zoophiles [or] zoosexuals. Sodomy is a term closely related to the subject matter.” You simply cannot generate these ideas without fascination at minimum and, at least imagining them in the mind as my new friend modestly agrees. As for the” fagnatura ass/backside, holes”, the only thing I can do here is taking the expression as it arrived; the BUTT which is a hole in the human body for whatever reason it might have been radiated including the target of the offense.
All the expressions academically reflect “COMPULSIVE PERVERSION” to say the least but the highlighted terms tell another story about the brother. They are filthy and traumatic expressions associated with different forms and scenarios of sex, abnormal sexual fantasies and crimes associated with one’s very sexual identity. The expressions cannot create themselves without the help of the thinker in different states of mind including experiences, traumatic effects, criminal tendencies, imaginations, total negation of women’s and family values in society, ladies and gentlemen! To this effect, an expert says that“Boys and men can be sexually used or abused, and it has nothing to do with how masculine they are.”
“The myth associated with sexual abuse as a child:
Myth 1 – “The myth that boys can’t be sexually used or abused, and if one is, he can never be a “real man. They often attempt to maintain secrecy, and to keep the abuse going”” The victim tries to overcome the associated gender oriented complex by acting macho through specific expressions that indirectly reflect the syndrome.
Myth 2 –“U.S. Centers for Disease Control, found that the sexual abuse of boys was more likely to involve penetration of some kind, which is associated with greater psychological harm and shame that lead many to believe they have to “tough it out” on their own. And that, of course, makes it harder to seek needed help in the midst of the abuse, or even years later when help is still needed.” Unfortunately, our culture has a hard time dealing with this extraordinary experience for a victim to suffer the consequence in extreme privacy.
Myth 3 – “The myth that boys who are sexually abused will go on to abuse others.
This myth is especially dangerous because it can create terrible fear in boys and men. They may not only fear becoming abusers themselves, but that others will find out they were abused and believe they’re a danger to children. Sadly, boys and men who tell of being sexually abused often are viewed more as potential perpetrators than as guys who need support.” Society has to profile and watch the brother unfortunately, but I believe he needs sympathy from us all in this case.
“Syndromes of sexual abuse as a child:
Difficulties with Sexual Functioning: an obsession with sex.
Difficulties with Intimacy. If you once trusted someone who abused you when he/she should have been protecting you, you may now have difficulty trusting anyone.
Self-Harm and Harm of Others. If you feel worthless as a result of the abuse, you could turn these painful feelings against yourself and others. You may find yourself in situations or remain in relationships that are harmful to you, emotionally, physically, sexually or otherwise.
Flashbacks, Anxiety and Nightmares. If you have unexplained anxiety or panic attacks, you could be re-experiencing the trauma of being sexually abused.
Anger. You might feel angry on anything.
Shame and Guilt. If you were sexually abused as a child, the underlying emotion may produce a sense of shame. Shame is a deep sense of feeling ‘bad’ as a person.
Physical Symptoms. Pains in the genitals, buttocks or back.”
Brothers and sisters; from the whole picture grasped to this point, based on material proof, experts on the field, the professional who accidentally motivated me to research, behavioral patter and Shilalogical Psychology, Shilan is what happened to him, probably a victim of sexually abused childhood within the immediate family. It is no longer about his Agazian nonsense anymore but his concrete physio-psychological condition we should worry about as a member of our family, immaterial whether Tigrian or Eritrean by birth. Don’t please personalize his resentment of life any longer.
There is a way out of the trauma and we must help the brother if he tells his childhood experience to people of his choice. There are different forms of help available in the presence of cultural issues that may hinder his willingness to admit. He does not have to be ashamed of it, it happens to many children around the world. He can call the Center For Child Protection Center (202) 544-3144 for help if he still lives in DC metropolitan area. I am also available and I guarantee him full confidentiality in this regard and really hope he will take advantage of the offer. But the least the Assenna family can do now is to let him say whatever he wants without responding. If you cannot do this, you have no compassion to a suffering individual in the community and please allow him to be himself, he cannot help it and be careful.
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